Going Dark

There’s something about maintaining a blog that is very freeing to me. I love the freedom to write about anything, to gush about writing, to fangirl about things, and to give and receive support from fellow writers. You all are the best.

But there’s something about a blog that is also quite deceptive. It’s easy to feel like your “internet life” doesn’t have any overlap with your “real life”. It’s quite possible to form opinions and make comments and share stories that are at complete odds with your “real life”. You might be having a sucky day, but you’re cheerfully commenting on someone else’s status. On the flip side of things, you want to be real, but you don’t want to overwhelm someone with your “real life”.  There’s a disconnect and a balance that walk hand-in-hand.

I think that’s one of the things that I’ve enjoyed so much about Jaime Morrow and Erin Funk‘s ‘What’s Up Wednesday‘ posts. There’s a good balance of finding the positive, sharing the real, gushing about the hobbies, and challenging each other. I’ve enjoyed every minute – thank you!

But, especially within the last week, my “real life” has been creeping up on me. Okay, so maybe shouting and waving red flags. There’s been the usual busyness, but sometimes things sort of jump out and grab you by the ankles and freak you out.  At some point, you have to stop and take the time to get things sorted. And quite frankly, doing that right now is going to involve letting this blog “go dark”,  Too many small emergencies left unattended can become one giant catastrophe, and right now, circumstances are handing me about six giant catastrophes. A few are personal, a lot involve other people, and one specifically needs constant focus and, as a side effect, almost zero “internet life” communication.

So, for now, this is me saying adieu. I’ve updated my Feedly, so I can try/still would be able to stalk y’all from afar. Maybe, even after this long and winded spiel, I’m still in denial about the limited opportunities I’m going to have to actually do that,

I don’t know if I’ll still be able to hop on and comment, or how soon I’ll be back to actively participate in this blog and get to be a part of this community again. Until then, thank you for everything, and I’ll still be cheering you on.

Remember The Signs

“But, first, remember, remember, remember the signs. Say them to yourself when you wake in the morning and when you lie down at night, and when you wake in the middle of the night. And whatever strange things may happen to you, let nothing turn your mind from following the signs. And secondly, I give you a warning. Here on the mountain I have spoken to you clearly: I will not often do so down in Narnia. Here on the mountain, the air is clear and your mind is clear; as you drop down into Narnia, the air will thicken. Take great care that it does not confuse your mind. And the signs which you have learned here will not look at all as you expect them to look, when you meet them there. That is why it is so important to know them by heart and pay no attention to appearances. Remember the signs and believe the signs. Nothing else matters.” from The Silver Chair, by C.S. Lewis

What’s Up Wednesday?

Back around again for another week of Jaime Morrow and Erin L. Funk‘s wonderful bloghop!

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Well…The Girl Of Fire And Thorns was due back at the library yesterday, but I’m going to suck it up and pay the fines on it until I finish. No way am I sending this one back unfinished. I LOVE this book! I’m less than halfway through, but it has been nothing but stellar. I can’t remember the last time I liked a main character this well!

What I’m Writing

Believe it or not, I almost skipped the bloghop this week. Because…I didn’t write a thing. Not a word. I didn’t jot down an outline, rattle off a scene, nada. I didn’t even get a chance to open the document. Sigh. This was not my best week.

3513d-readysetwritebuttonI don’t think it was the fault of my goals, though. I still want to train myself into writing each day, but I can’t commit more time than that half-an-hour chunk. This week it got stolen by [What Else I’ve Been Up To], but I’m going to try again. Half an hour a day. Every day.

What Inspires Me

Last week I didn’t manage to comment very much, but I still read every single post. If nothing else, the enthusiasm is encouraging. There’s nothing quite like hanging around people who are passionate about what they love to do. Thank you, fellow writers!

What Else I’ve Been Up To

Friday through Sunday got stolen by an impromptu trip back to my hometown. My track record with traveling is terrible; I got caught in very heavy rain driving out and back, and Sunday’s bout involved hail. I haven’t had a trip back this year that didn’t involve bad weather of some sort! Other than that, I got some much-needed sleep, and a lot of planning and prep done for the debate workshop I’m teaching there in August. Plus, my sis and I managed to sneak in time to see Red 2, which I loved even more than the first one. I’m a sucker for action movies, and it’s always fun to see retirees kicking butt.

Otherwise, my writing evenings were individually usurped by my mom’s birthday, three hours of volleyball, a children’s program at church, time with my grandparents, and being engrossed by The Girl Of Fire And Thorns. But, I’m starting to handle my work schedule and only pulled one 10-hr day last week. Yes! Being home earlier will help with the life-is-crazy thing, I think. 🙂

What’s Up on your Wednesday? Check out Jaime’s blog to join in! 

What’s Up, Wednesday?

I think I’m in denial. Is it the middle of July ALREADY??? Time for another What’s Up Wednesday, hosted by Jaime Morrow and Erin Funk!

What I’m Reading 4a45a-buttonsmallnoborder

I finally finished Siege & Storm, which left me in a puddle of feels and completely incapable of reading anything else. I love Leigh Bardugo’s world, and I wanted a bit of time to digest it before I started on The Girl Of Fire And Thorns. But, I’ve got a library deadline breathing down my neck, so I have to have it read by next Wednesday. Y’all’s comments have convinced me that it’s going to be fantastic, so I’ve got the sequel on hold at the library.

What I’m Writing

I had half-an-hour-a-day as my writing goal last week, which was sort-of-but-not-quite a success. It meant that I was constantly thinking about my WIP, plotting it out during the day in prep for my writing time in the evening, but there were a number of days that I didn’t get to sit down and write. The constant brewing was SO MUCH FUN, and gave me some strange and fantastical ideas for it, but the actually writing only came out to around 2K, again crammed into only a few days (2, I think?) of actual writing. But, I liked the mentality it gave me. There was more of an urgency when I wrote, because of my time limits, and my writing time was more thought out and 3513d-readysetwritebuttonintentional because I had planned throughout the day to make the most of that time. So I’m going to try for it again this week, and see if I can get in front of that computer a few more days: half an hour at a time.

What Inspires Me Right Now

Music, most definitely.  It does NOT really fit the timeline of my WIP, but I’ve been looping Ian Franzino’s “Holding On” and “Something Inside” for some of my scenes, and the energy of the songs has really translated well into my writing. I feel like I should be listening to something orchestral and/or exotic, but I can’t give up my dubstep love!

Otherwise, I’d like to say thank you for the comments on the snippet I posted last week. One of my favorite parts of Ready. Set. Write! has been reading (and enjoying!) the excerpts from y’all, and it definitely helped me post a tiny bit of my own. Thank you!!

What Else I’m Up To

Every August, some other debate alumni and I run a 3-day debate workshop that kicks off the school year/debate season for Midwest-area debaters, the majority of which are involved in my old debate club. It’ll be my fifth year in leadership, and while I absolutely LOVE teaching and writing the curriculum, I HATE our topic this year. It changes every year, and this year it’s federal election policy. One of my roles is giving the students an overview of the topic, which involves massive amounts of reading. Hate to say it, but federal election law isn’t that exciting, and while I should be used to/okay with reading Supreme Court decisions and the minutiae of congressional bills…I’m dragging my feet. I put a countdown on my phone to remind me of the quickly-dwindling days, but I’m not really motivated yet.  2-3 hours of my day are dedicated to prep, which is why my writing time is so limited, making all this work seem infinitely less fun. I’d rather be writing! Right now, my mantra is something along the lines of “just keep swimming, just keep swimming…” Very motivational! 🙂

What’s Up on your Wednesday?

To learn more about this fantastic bloghop, head on over to Jaime Morrow’s blog to find out more or see the other links!

What Up, Wednesday?

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Back with another What’s Up Wednesday, the fabulous meme that lets you check in on a few basics.

What I’m Reading

I love Siege And Storm…but believe it or not, I’m not done yet. Yeah, I had a holiday weekend, but family took precedence over everything else, and I didn’t read a thing. But, I’ve got a few books coming due at the library, so I’ve really got to get going.

What I’m Writing

I managed to sneak away for an hour on Thursday and Friday, and stuffed my entire week-long goal in: 2,500 words. And then I didn’t write.  Strange, to have everything stirring around and not writing it down, but I really enjoyed the satisfaction that came with meeting my goal, and it helped me put it aside and spend some much needed rest time with my family. We don’t get that very often anymore, and I love[d] every minute.

3513d-readysetwritebuttonThis week, everything is sort of off the charts, though. So I’m just going to try to dedicate half an hour every day to writing. No word counts, scene expectations, nothing. I never take very long to settle down to writing (usually because everything stews in my head all day so I’m ready/dying to write in the evenings), so I’m not worried about half an hour being too little to get into the story. But I want to try to schedule that time in order to make sure that I’m fitting it in. I’ve got some other deadlines to meet, and I just want to regain that writing-something-every-day consistency.

What Inspires Me Right Now

Do you ever get inspired by your own story? Your WIP? When I’m writing consistently, I start to reach that point where everything is connected to my WIP.  I see interactions between people and wonder how/if that would translate into my story. Food, family, friends, grudges, gifts, sunshine…with this story as my constant background, it’s easy to find inspiration in even the little things. And regardless of how slow the writing is, I’m finding myself getting excited over this again.

What Else I’m Up To

I need a new synonym for swamped/busy/in-over-my-head. 10 hours in the office every day, and it’s starting to wear. I love my job, but acquiring two people’s jobs in addition to my own at the end of a quarter and crammed into two weeks of training…whew. I’m really, really, really hoping that things will settle down. And that I won’t forget important things, like payroll and taxes and bills due.

And life in general is sort of hectic. Trying to plan a trip to fly out and see my sister. Trying not to think about huge August deadlines. Making decisions on commitments for this fall. Too much to do. o.0

So that’s my Wednesday! What’s yours like? Add it to the link on Jaime’s page!